OK time for the new thread (I've deleted the old one, in case anyone is looking for it). All is well on the 
front. I have had some contact with him,
but it's different. The landscape has shifted. I remember one of you (Mys?) asking a while back whether I had ever told him how I felt about him. Well, I
did, this time (in the "it's over" message of May 4). So, even though in a way nothing has changed, everything has changed. The first week was
rocky (much like a detox from any addiction), but this week is calmer. I keep thinking that it doesn't matter whether I hear from him or see him. I have
told him how I feel, and I have set him free (and, hopefully, set myself free as well). It still feels like a relief in a lot of ways - I said some stuff to
him that I have needed to say for years. I keep coming back (in my head) to the phrase "truth will set you free". I think it might have.
front. I have had some contact with him,
but it's different. The landscape has shifted. I remember one of you (Mys?) asking a while back whether I had ever told him how I felt about him. Well, I
did, this time (in the "it's over" message of May 4). So, even though in a way nothing has changed, everything has changed. The first week was
rocky (much like a detox from any addiction), but this week is calmer. I keep thinking that it doesn't matter whether I hear from him or see him. I have
told him how I feel, and I have set him free (and, hopefully, set myself free as well). It still feels like a relief in a lot of ways - I said some stuff to
him that I have needed to say for years. I keep coming back (in my head) to the phrase "truth will set you free". I think it might have.
to all
fronts. Eating is also going better, and my hip is doing OK - ran my regular 10K route yesterday with
no problem.
to your new thread, g!!
and any time you might be tempted to call/text him, come here to remind yourself of everything you
have said about this toxic relationship and why he needs to be out of your life permanently. it still won't be easy, tho, due to the hold he's had on
you for so long... and it's sooooooooo difficult to truly let go of someone who meant/means..? as much to you as he has. but you CAN do it. and we're
here doing our best to help you every step of the way, g. 
